teaching is tricky...
ya it is because of the responsibilities that teacher face, every move action, word she says is important...it can affect her students...good or bad, but it will affect them for life!!
but either than that point, a teachers life is tricky...because she is on a war with her self...
as Muslims we have some characteristics that we need to build on, a Muslim's job on this earth, is to worship ALLAH...our Lord!
but praying and fasting isn't the only kind of worship that a Muslim is responsible of, but also our selves!
we are responsible of our actions our morals and characteristics...
how we act towards others...basically how we live in the best manner possible...
we need to take care of our bodies our minds...but also our Nafs!
In Islam we are told to be modest, be humble, be kind to everyone you face...
at home among your family that's easy...but take it out and specially in school, and you will learn the true meaning of war against your Nafs!
We would think that school is full of humbleness and modesty (because it is where knowledge is spread) and we would think that school is full of kindness and support well...basically because of the same reason...
School is different than for example working in a company. In school you have more freedom (As girl) and the school and all that is in it feels like your family!
You are more free, more relaxed, more energized in school...and of course full of life! School gives you the opportunity to see your work growing you and your "girls" glowing in front of your eyes.
but because of all this the "war" begins!
It is so easy to fall into the "Me Me Me" mood in school...
because as a teacher you need to "show of" your work to others and specially to the management...so that they will know that you are working and give you more opportunities to be more creative!!
and when you see that those little lights, are dependent on you and no one other...
thus the "me me me" inside of you is growing...
and everyone calls you "Abla" (teacher), the one who knows more than me...the one is bigger than me...and "me me me" continues to grow...
and it gets to a point, that teachers just scream at girls because they did not do what you asked them to in the first place...(Even if what you asked them to makes no sense!! and you know it! ) or "fluff your feathers up" because "I am the teacher! I am the creative one among the others! I am the one who all the girls love"
The girls are looking up to me and the teachers are feeling juls at my "creativeness"...
and of course let us not forget the many many eyes that are watching every action you do, from the girls, to the teachers and management...which makes it very hard not to not fluff you feathers ?!!
and the nafs grows!
and the true qualities of a Muslim is lost!!!
You want to learn "moqawament al Nafs" (going against your self) to become a better person to have great qualities, of loving everyone as you brother or sister...as our beloved Muhammad peace and blessings be upon him, and to be humbled and modest with all the creativity and hard work that you do because you know that it is from your Lord Subahana wa Ta'ala, and to be in a constant move to learn more and develop more because you know that ALLAH loves those who know...who learn and teacher others...and i will never have enough because all of what is around me is my Gods blessings and I want to use it all..
So when you do alot of work and no one thanks you for it or worse someone else gets the credit, don't squirm just relax and say Alhmdu le ALLAH because you did not do it for the thank you or for the someone, but rather you did for ALLAH sub7ana w ta'ala...
and when everyone comes to you to help them, and when you need the help they run away...don't cry and say alhmdu le ALLAH because the one who is helping you now is ALLAH sub7ana wa Ta'ala. and when those who you should show respect to insult you in front of the lights of the school...don't scream...just smile and say Alhmdu le ALLAH...ALLAH knows what is in the hearts of people...and thank Him that you have not reached that stage and pray hard that you will never do!
2 comments:
teaching is tricky indeed foo foo... :) may Allah give you the inner strength to keep charging your iman batteries and it will all keep glowing on the outside nshallah... :)
you are right about the "me me" part... but you know, once I heard a girl say at the halaqa that we have to change our perspective a bit and not "fight against" our nafs... but make some sort of a partnership with it instead... coz ur nafs is also like those little girls ur teaching... u are constantly improving it and teaching it... so if u try to go against it, it will give u a lot of resistance and a hard time to have acceptance in any situation... whereas you need to tame it and make it work with u to become that image u want for it :)
even if you don't realize it, i'm sure ur being a great model for ur little students and nshallah allah will give u the strength to remain the pure person u r and not be affected by the ugliness of the real world hehe... :)
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